On the eve of everyone knowing that I am going to have another child, I am led back in time to when I found out that my son and daughters were diagnosed with Fragile X.
All the emotion and fears that came to my mind when I was told what was going on, and how our lives would change from that moment on.
I tried to explain what the outcome of me having another would mean to the baby and what it would mean for the family. I find that even though I had explained it before when this little life is brought into the world, denial for what I carry and pass onto my kids come from outside sources.
The idea that if this child is a boy that 'it' will not suffer with the Fragile X as my son does is Ludicrous! The doctors told me that the likely hood would be slim to non existent. But hay what do they know... they only study it for a living.
I hope for a girl, but the outcome of a girl is likely to be the same as my son is a possibility (smaller but still.)
We are not ready for another baby, but I will love the baby and we will make it!
But definition Fragile X is:
Fragile X is the most common cause of inherited mental impairment. This impairment can range from learning disabilities to more severe cognitive or intellectual disabilities (sometimes referred to as mental retardation). Symptoms also can include characteristic physical and behavioral features, anxiety, and delays in speech and language development. Fragile X syndrome is also the most common known cause of autism or "autistic-like" behaviors.
In my world, Fragile X is a family member that has changed everything I knew about life and love. My son has opened my eyes to a world that is different and scary. But most of all it has become a world that is not negative, but a life changing even for us all.